Can you believe that today is the last day of 2013????? I really cannot believe how quickly this year went by, but I have to say I'm not sad to see it go. I think this year has been one of the hardest years of my life. From working harder at my job, trying to be a better wife and mom, and just learning more about myself. However, the hardest day in this entire year came September 30, 2013, the day the Lord called my Grandmother back home. Until this day I had never experienced that type of pain, anger, guilt, confusion, or denial in my life. I was just as her house the weekend before because I was in town for a wedding so I had just talked to her, touched her, kissed her, hugged her, told her I love her less than 24 hours ago. Receiving that phone call felt like my world fell apart, it felt surreal and some days it still feels that way. I had that day off from work and debated with myself if I should stay another day, but I had work I needed to complete so I headed home. I regret not staying, I replay it in my head all the time as if I could have prevented what God had planned. *sigh* It's still hard every single day... So I'm ready for 2014! A new year just brings about a fresh start and a renewed feeling. 
I'm not making any resolutions, I just want to continue working on improving myself. One thing my Grandma's passing has taught me is that life is too short to be nothing but happy. I don't want to live with regret and I want to surround myself with happy people. There are so many things that happen in life that can cause us to be happy, sad, angry, disappointed, thankful, etc but I promise not to give that control to other people. As my husband always says..."Your attitude and reaction to things are based on YOU!" Although I don't want to hear this most times at the moment he says it (lol) it is the truth. If you choose to be happy you will, if you choose to be angry and bitter you will. As the kids say at the end of my daughter's karate class "I CHOOSE TO BE A WINNER!" As we enter into this new year reflect on your life and determine whether this is the person you want to bring into the new year.
From my family to yours, we wish you a healthy, happy, and prosperous 2014!
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